Chapter 84

Killian:

“Have you managed to tend to the things you wanted down in the office?” Eleanor asked, shaking her head in question.

The two of us were walking down in the garden, and I couldn’t help but find myself feeling homesick as we did. Yes, we were at home, but by home, I actually meant the peace that we normally had at home. Now, it just felt like it was some constant fight for something, and the thing was, I didn’t even understand why. I just knew that it was an issue that we were having as a family. And though I knew that it wasn’t something that was common before, the fact that I knew that it was because of Natasha, I couldn’t help but find myself curious about the reason behind the way that she was acting.

It wasn’t like I didn’t have problems to deal with before, but Natasha getting involved with  the woman that I chose as my own was never something that I expected, especially not from her.

“Not yet, there are a lot of questions that need answering before we could do that, but at this point, I didn’t see myself having the answer to them.” I said, trying to explain the situation. But even I didn’t have an explanation for what happened. To say the least, I knew that someone must have told the bastard that Eleanor was with us and the fact that no one knew where we were was something that concerned me to begin with.

Hell, I bought the island for Eleanor and I to ensure that no one found us; therefore, to know that Elton was not only able to find us but was also able to enter the island to begin with was alarming to me.

“I am sure that you would be able to find the answers soon enough, but right now, what I want and need you to do is rest.” I smiled at my beauty’s innocence. The fact that I knew that she was hurt from everything that she went through wasn’t something that I was going to deny; however, the fact that she still managed to smile through it all was one thing that I was forever going to be grateful for.

“You know that me recovering isn’t as important as a certain mate’s safety, and the fact that I know that you were harmed…”

“I was harmed to be tested out,” she said, stopping me. My heart swelled as she took my hand in hers, gently running her finger on mine as she did. The fact that she saw things differently was not something that I would have expected, but it was something that made me more thankful to have her as my mate. “I know that it is wrong to see it the way that I do right now, and I understand that you don’t want me being hurt; but I want YOU to understand my point of view in this first.”

I stayed quiet, wanting her to voice out her thoughts. The fact that she opened up to me in a way that I never pictured was something that I loved beyond explanation. The woman showed me her most vulnerable state, and that was something that made my chest swell as I looked at and admired her.

“A few months back, I wouldn’t have been able to fight back no matter how much I wanted to. I would have been submitting to him until he was done, and when he’s had it with the way that he was using me, I would have gotten up to take a shower, waiting for my dignity to shower over me. My heart would race and ache as he took me, but I wouldn’t even try pushing him away anymore. I knew that he would be very aggressive if I tried, and because of that, I was always sure to be that good girl that didn’t try angering him." She said, making my heart ache for her, but this time, it wasn’t because I felt sorry for what she went through; it was because I knew that she was an angel at heart regardless of all the damage that she went through. “This time, I was sure to fight back. My body refused to accept anyone else touching me, and I knew for fact that I wouldn’t want anyone except for you to touch me. My wolf snapped at him, growing stronger than she ever was, and I knew that it wouldn’t have happened if not for me growing up with you as my mate. The Alpha’s Luna, your Alpha blood of a mate, grew stronger because of you, for you, and that is not something that I am going to want to change anytime soon.”

I didn’t respond for a few seconds before turning her, cupping her cheeks and connecting my lips with hers. She looped her fingers with my belt loops, but I didn’t want to deepen the kiss, if anything, I just wanted to kiss her gently, tenderly, and lovingly. The idea of losing her was something that I feared, and though I saw what she went through, I knew for fucking fact that I wouldn’t be feeling what she truly felt. Her pain was not one that I felt, and that was something that I was not going to deny.

I pulled away and rested my forehead against hers for a second before pulling away to kiss her forehead. 

“I don’t know what I did to deserve you, Eleanor Bernardi,” I whispered to her. The fact that she was yet to carry my last name was one thing that I wanted to change, and that was something that I planned on doing fast. It was one thing for her to be carrying my enemy’s blood, but a complete other thing for her to carry his name. It was a reminder that HE was alive and that HE hurt her, and that was something that I planned on changing soon enough. “But I give you my fucking word that I will not rest until everyone who has hurt you faces his end, and I am going to be sure that they fucking beg for it. The torment that you went through is not something that I will ignore or take lightly, I promise you, malyshka, that I am going to be sure that I end them all.”

“I know that I told you that I didn’t want anyone being harmed,” she said, taking me off guard before she ran her finger over my chest. “But I want to see each one of them die. I know that it is not something that you would expect from me, but for the pain that they put me through, Killian, I want to see each one of them take their last breath, and just like they humiliated me for years, I want to witness the same thing for them.”

I smiled and connected my lips with hers in a gentle kiss, “I don’t want to live in fear anymore, Killian. I really am tired of waking up every day being scared of someone hurting me, raping me, or hitting me. Please promise me that.”

“I would give you the last bullet to shoot on the man who broke your heart, but I also know that you wouldn’t want to taint your hands with blood.” I said, and she looked down at my chest. “As for living in fear, I am going to be training you myself to teach you how to fend for yourself. This way, the two of us would know that if anything does happen, you are going to be able to fight for yourself, how about it, malyshka?” 

“I would love that,” she said, and I smiled, pecking her lips gently before pulling away to rest my forehead with hers. “But first, you are going to recover.”

“Eleanor!”

“Not a single word out of you on this one,” she said, making me laugh and she giggled. “I really do love you, Killian Ivanov. And I don’t know what I would do without you in my life, but I am going to forever be grateful for the day that I snuck in that car that day.”

“I love you too, malyshka.” I said, pecking her lips before turning her for the two of us to go back inside. “Forever and always, I will always love you, baby girl…”