Chapter 55
Eleanor:
“What does that woman want anyway?” I asked Killian who was laying on my bed.
I lay on his chest as he wrapped one arm around me, holding me closer to him.
“I still don’t know, we are going to find out though. But I don’t want you to think about it.” He said, and I raised myself to look at him.
“You know that I can’t help it, and that is why, I will.” I said, and he smiled before cupping my cheeks. He pulled me in for a kiss, and I couldn’t help but purr as he did. He pulled away and purred back, making my cheeks redden as he pulled me in for a hug.
I lay my head on the crook of his neck, inhaling his scent, growing more attached to him by the second as I did.
“You know, I never did take you for a jealous mate, but I have to admit, I can’t help but find myself liking it.” He said, making my eyes widen before I pulled away to look him in the eye. “It shows me that you really do feel something for me.”
“You know for fact that I do, and…”
“Not what I meant, malyshka.” He said, stopping me. I frowned in confusion, and he chuckled before pulling me in for another kiss. “Your demeanor seems calm and collected, but the jealousy that I saw dropped that completely. I saw a Luna who was more than willing to protect what was hers, refusing to think of the idea of someone else claiming it from her.”
“You are my mate,” I said, and he smiled. “Truth be told, I didn’t want to think of the possibility of losing you to someone else. The idea of you searching for what I can’t give you elsewhere consumed me at that point. Natasha spoke to me to comfort me, but you know that these feelings tend to be too strong and this is the first time that I’m experiencing them.”
“All the more reason to make them special to me,” he said, making me smile. “The idea of being the one man who would ever enter your heart is something that I admire. It gives me the sense of responsibility of wanting to protect you from everything, even a fly that can think of harming you.”
“If anyone had told me that you would be my safe haven when I first came here, I would have laughed in front of them. The fear that I had of you finding out who I was, you killing me or even worse, sending me back to Elton, was…” I stopped as I tried finding the right words; however, Killian nodded in understanding, letting me know that he knew what I was talking about. And that alone was enough to make my heart skip a beat.
The fact that he could understand what I wanted to tell him without the need to do so was something that made me feel even safer than he wanted to make me. I knew that somewhere, someone, my mate, knew what I wanted to say without the need of vocalizing it word by word to be heard and in the end ignored. It was how things were between Elton and I, even before he showed his true face.
He was rarely ever understanding, and though others might have seen the red lights then, I was far too innocent and closed up on to do so. My own father rarely ever allowed me to speak and when I did, I had to be direct with my words if I wanted to avoid misunderstandings and punishments, and because of that, I believed that all men were the same in such a term.
Killian proved me wrong.
“I am going to make them all pay for what they’ve made you live through, and believe me, malyshka, I won’t be easy on them. They are going to end up begging to be killed, and even then, I would debate on giving them a painful death that their followers never forget.” He said, making my chest swell.
“I will leave that up to you. No matter how much he’s hurt me, I am not cruel hearted to want anyone to suffer.” I said, and Killian frowned in confusion.
“But he didn’t bother thinking twice about hurting you,” he said, and I nodded.
“I know, not him, and not those that were around him either.” I said, and he shook his head in question, waiting for me to elaborate. “Elton wasn’t the only one who took me against my will. He would often allow his friends to watch, and most of the time to take their turns, and the worst part was, sometimes he would even kill them for ‘looking at what was his’. He offered me to them, and they took the chance to die. In turn I would just stand there, blank, and scared. At a certain point I just stopped fighting. At first, I did fight even him off, but then I wondered what it was worth. In the end, I just wanted to end, just like I want him to end. The idea of a person suffering, when I know what it feels like, is not something that I like.”
Killian clenched his fist for a second before he took a deep breath and nodded. He ran his finger over my cheek for a second before pulling me in for a gentle kiss that had my chest swelling.
“You leave the dirty work up to me,” he whispered, pulling away to rest his forehead against mine. “I am going to be sure that he and those who have harmed you know what it is to deal with someone their own size.”
“What if they find me before that happens?” I asked, voicing my fear out. “It is something that seems to consume me, and I don’t know how to deal with it.”
“Actually, malyshka, I am going to have them find you.” He said, and I frowned, wanting to move away from him. He put his hand on my right knee, squeezing it gently as he stopped me. “After you’re strong enough to fight them off, I am going to have them come to find you themselves. ONLY after they have seen who you really are, am I going to make each one of them regret hurting a hair on your head.”
“Killian, no matter what happens, I know that I’m not going to be strong enough to…”
“We are taking baby steps, baby girl.” He said, stopping me. “I am not going to do it today, tomorrow, or even in a year. But I’m not going to hide you either. If anything, you are a person that I want to gloat about to the whole world. I want everyone to see that I have the strongest angel as my mate and Luna, and that is not going to happen when I’m hiding you within my Estate, would it?”
“What if it isn’t true?” I asked, and he chuckled.
“I see the fire in your eyes, your soul, and the beauty that surrounds it. Therefore, my beloved malyshka, I know for fact that it is a hundred percent true.” He said, making me smile. “All you have to do is truly believe in yourself. Because, my beautiful malyshka, I believe in you, and that is something that I want you to keep in mind the next time you look at yourself in the mirror.”
He ran his finger over my knee before raising his hand to my thigh as he pulled me to straddle his lap. I looked down at it for a second before doing as asked and he smiled, wrapping both his arms around me as he pulled me to completely lay on top of him.
“I, Alpha Killian Ivanov, devote myself to you, my beautiful Luna, Alienora Bernardi,” he whispered, holding me closer to him. “With my heart and soul, I am devoted to you, and only, my beautiful malyshka.”