Chapter 35

Eleanor:

“So, you are Russian but you chose to live here in the US?” I asked, choosing to want to engage in the conversation that the Alpha and I were having. 

The two of us have been sitting here together, at the small dining table, for the past hour and a half. And though I knew that I still had a few things to do, I knew that I didn’t want such a moment to end.

This has been our few moments of peace for the past few weeks now. Everyday, after he was done with whatever he had to do with work, the two of us would come here together and either have dinner if he chose not to want to join his pack members on the dining table or we would have coffee out here. Sometimes it would just be us walking around under the stars, but I cherished every moment that the two of us were sharing. 

The man was not only gentle with me, but he was sure that I was comfortable with everything that the two of us were doing, and that was something that I held onto. The safety and security that I felt with him was one that I never wanted to lose. 

“Have you ever gone to Rome?” Alpha Killian asked and I smiled and nodded.

“I never really went around it, but I am Italian, remember?” I asked, and he chuckled.

“I am well aware that you are Italian, I just don't know which part of Italy you are from.” He said, and I nodded in understanding. 

“I lived in Rome throughout most of my childhood, then I moved to Florence. I rarely ever moved around though. I was barely ever allowed outside the house.” I said, and the Alpha frowned in confusion. I knew that it was something that would confuse him, even I didn’t understand the reason behind it at times, it was something that didn’t make sense to me, especially since I never really got an explanation from anyone about the way that I was treated. 

“Why not?” He asked, and I shrugged, shaking my head in response. 

“My father didn’t believe that a woman should be going out. I don’t know his real reasons, but I often chose not to ask many questions after a while. You know, I often got in more trouble than I could afford, and at times, I didn’t want to deal with his anger when he grew physical.” I said, and he sighed but nodded in understanding.

“And you still don’t want to tell me who you are or where you came from for me to help you?” He asked, and I shook my head. The man didn’t understand that he was going to end up hating me and my presence if he found out about who I was. I was barely able to speak to him, and the idea of losing the safety that I felt around him was not one that I wanted to deal with. I wouldn’t handle it anyway.

“Alpha Killian, I know that you are not going to accept me if you found out who I was.” I said, shaking my head at him and he frowned in confusion. The man would not only hate me, but would end up sending me back to Elton, and that wasn’t something that I wanted to deal with. And at this point, I didn’t know whether Elton killing me was going to be worse, or would it be the Alpha hating me. The idea of him resenting me scared me a lot more than death did right now, and that was something that I couldn’t admit, not to him anyway.

“Can you at least explain your reasons?” He asked, and I looked down at the table that we had between us. The maids have already cleared everything here up, we were just sitting here because we wanted to spend time together. “Did you kill someone and are hiding here? Did you...?”

“I have blood on my hands, but I am not the cause of it, Alpha.” I said, stopping him. He frowned in confusion, but stayed quiet as he waited for me to explain. My heart raced and I clenched my fist a few times before looking him in the eye. “I doubt that you would even understand the risk of me telling you…”

“Try me,” he said confidently. My chest ached at his words, especially when I knew that I didn’t even have the guts to ‘try him’ as he was asking me to. I was afraid to do so and I was even more scared of the outcome of how things were going to be. 

“I don’t want to lose you, Alpha.” I said before I could stop myself. My cheeks reddened a small smile crept on the man’s face as he heard my words. His eyes met mine for a second before I lowered my gaze to the table, avoiding his eyes. He slowly got up from his chair before walking toward me. His steps careful as he neared me. 

“Look at me, Eleanor.” He said, his voice above a whisper as he spoke. I closed my eyes for a second before forcing myself to look him in the eye, his eyes more gentle than anything that I have ever seen before. He slowly leaned in and placed his hand on my chin, his touch gentle, as he ran his finger over it. My cheeks reddened, and I watched as he leaned in before his lips brushed against my own. 

“Nothing, not a single thing, malyshka, is going to make you lose me, do you understand me?” He asked, his hot breath hitting my face before he connected his lips with mine before I could pull away.

His kiss was soft, as soft as a butterfly landing on my finger. Sparks coursed through my body and veins, and my wolf purred before I could stop her. The two of us pulled away to breath and the Alpha rested his forehead against mine. 

I looked him in the eye, and couldn’t help but frown as my heart raced and my stomach churned. The one word that I never thought that I would say slipped out of my lips even before I could stop myself.

“Mate…?”