Chapter 105

Eleanor:

“I know that you don’t like celebrating your birthday. Natasha told me your reason…”

“Then why did you…?”

“Open the box, Killian.” I said, stopping him. My heart raced against my chest and I knew when I first came here that this might hurt him, but if I could face my fear and pain, and if I could stand strong to start fresh, then so can he. His eyes hardened, but he took a deep breath and did as told. 

He frowned in confusion at the sight of a small album, it was what Natasha, his mother, and I could find of both him and his sister. Their pictures growing up, and it ended with the surprise that I wanted to give him.

His heart raced, and his hands shook as he looked at the pictures, and it took everything in me to stay still in my place as I forced myself not to walk toward and comfort him. If anyone knew how painful it was to lose your family member, best friend, and everything that you had, it is me. But if anyone knew how to rise from that pain, then it was also me.

He reached the last page, and a small note was hidden inside the last envelope that had the beginning that I wanted to give him.

-My beloved Alpha Killian, my sun, my sky, my moon, the air that I breathe, and the reason to my survival, 

If I am alive today, and if I faced the one thing, person, or monster that I feared, it was because I held onto you. Our moments, our memories, and the love that grew with it was something that I held onto more than I could have ever thought that I would. And if I was to live through that again, if I was to be challenged with your love again, I know for fact that it was because of you that I would be able to stand.

Our little princess is healthy as shown in the ultrasound behind this note. Your little heir, your pride, and glory would be lucky to have not only a man in her life, but a guardian who I know would die before a hair on her head was harmed.

I stood strong for your sake and I rose despite all the pain and heartbreak that I went through, I always knew that I had someone to hold onto. I had a person who I could call my home. A guardian who I could look at and feel like everything is going to be okay.

I know that this hurt you more than it satisfied you, and I know that you would have wanted me to give this to you on a different date. But just as I was able to face my own pain and find you by my side to lean on, I want you to know that I am right here for you.

I understand the pain of losing your sister, and it kills me inside to know who did it. But I want you to keep in mind that she died a warrior, and she would have wanted you to live out for her, not bury yourself as you avoided counting the years of losing her. Make her live through you and with each passing year that you grow, know that she is growing too.

She gave her life up for your sake, and I will no longer allow you to kill yourself and her because of it. It will hurt, and though I do not know her, but I will stand by your side and grieve for her if you need me to, but on the day that you born, you and her are going to grow together, and our baby would know that her father saved her mother’s life just like her auntie saved her father. We all live for one another in this world, and no matter the pain, we all grow out of it. We just need to find how.

I know that you could be upset with me right now, and I understand that you might want me to leave. But I want you to understand that I am not going to go anywhere, even if it does mean facing my mate’s anger because of it.

To fresh starts, and to new beginnings. Today, you are not only born, today she is too. 

Happy birthday, my love, and know that you have a mate who is not only willing to love you until the end of time; but one who is willing to prove it to you, just as you proved it to me, until the day of my last breath.

-Your mate, lover, friend, and other half, Eleanor Bernardi.

I kept my eyes on Killian as he turned the ultrasound to look at the picture and I couldn’t help the small smile that formed on my lips when I saw his happiness in his eyes. He looked up at me for a second, and I nodded, letting him know that this was our baby. 

I had to admit, I never did expect Natasha to want to take me to the doctor to check, especially after what she went through. But she was the one who dragged me to this, and I couldn’t help but find myself being happy because of it.

Killian didn’t say a word for a few seconds before he took a step toward me. He looked me in the eye, his body towering over mine for a second too long before he leaned in toward my lips. 

My breath got caught in my throat as he ran his finger over my jawline, and I couldn’t help but whimper when he brushed his bottom lip with mine. 

“You just gave me the world, Eleanor.” He whispered, “and no matter how much I am going to want to, I know for fucking fact that I was never going to be able to repay you for this.” 

“Killian…”

“I am fucking in love with you, Eleanor.” He whispered, stopping me. “And not only did you just give me the best birthday gift, but you brought me back to life when I buried myself so deep within to the point where I didn’t want to know what life was after her.” 

“Because I know now that without what she did, I was never going to be able to meet my angel.” He said, pecking my lips. “And I owe it to her to value the sacrifice that she made for me. Therefore, I will forever thank you for it, my sweet, beautiful angel…”