Chapter 45: Chapter Forty-Five

**Alexandria**

The last month with Jaxson and being a Luna to this pack has been amazing. There have been challenges with Ashley continuing to challenge my authority and insert herself into my Luna position and trying to claim Jaxson as hers and I was easily able to assert my dominance over her and she quickly learned that if she wants a challenge, she will get one and she ended up getting her ass kicked and she found out the hard way that she can’t claim someone else’s mate. Let's just say she won't be trying anything else like that and she quickly learned her place within the pack.

Jaxson and I knew after the first time she tried to claim him and my place as Luna that she was going to be a problem, but after I established my dominance over her, she quickly learned her place and we keep an eye on her and she is aware that if she can’t control herself, she will be kicked out of the pack and be forced to go rogue.

My parents are loving it here, my mom cooks for us in the pack house and my dad works with the current head warrior and helps with training of all the other pack members. Annie is beginning to show now since she is pregnant with twin boys and today Annie and I are going shopping for baby clothes and some other things she thinks she may need for when the boys get here in the next few months, she hasn’t gotten much for them yet, so we need to get a move on with the shopping, wolves don’t get long to prepare anyway with our pregnancies not being as long as a human pregnancy. But Annie and John are really excited to be parents they already have a Moon Goddess theme picked out for the nursery and they have the cribs and rocker chairs and major furniture set up, we mainly need clothes and bedding and stuff like that for the boys.

As I am laying here in bed this morning trying to get up and get a shower so we can get going on this shopping trip today. I have been so sleepy lately and I just want to stay in bed all day but after a bit I manage to get up and make my way to the shower and get the water turned on and when I am about to climb in I have this feeling come over me that takes me run to the toilet and I try to empty my stomach and nothing comes out because hello….there is nothing in there. This is getting tiresome, I have been feeling like this for a couple of weeks now and I know it has nothing to do with food poisoning or the flu, I mean come on, werewolves don't get sick, There has also been a few times where my mom would be cooking something and I would have to run from the room because it would make me feel sick and want to puke, this is ridicu…..oh my goddess.

When I think about everything that has been going on and when I put everything together it occurs to me that I may be pregnant, I link Annie and ask her if she has an extra test, and she comes in within two minutes waving it about like it’s a gold medal. “Annie! Hush I don't want to alert the press just yet, would you keep it down please.”

“Sorry honey, I'm just excited, this would be great if we could be pregnant together. It would be awesome.”

“Yea, yea, it would be, but I need to take this test, and PLEASE for the love don't say anything to John or Jaxson until we know for sure.”

“Your secret is safe with me. Now go take that test and tell me if I'm going to be an auntie or not.”

I turn and head towards the bathroom and sit over the toilet and hold the test in place and do what needs to be done. This could be something wonderful or it could be something terrible, I know Jaxson and I have been wanting to start a family, but we haven't put a timetable on it, we haven’t specified if we want it to be right now or in the next year or so. What if I am and he isn't ready for kids yet, what if he begins to feel tied down? I mean I know he wants me, and I know we are happy together spending all our free time together, but what if he doesn't want pups yet, what if he thinks he won't want to share me with kids and he wants to be able to have me all to himself.

What if… No, I can't think like that, Jaxson loves me, and I know he would love to have a pup of his own, he sees John and Annie together talking about how it's going to be when their pup arrives, and I think I can see how happy he is for them, and it makes me think that maybe he could even want one for us too. I just need to stay positive and hope for the best, I will just have to wait for this result and figure out a way to tell him if I am.

And if I’m not then I won't even need to worry about telling him at all. If I'm not pregnant I won't even mention it. I’ll just keep this info between me and Annie, I know she wouldn't say anything to him whether I was or not. Annie is like my sister; she would never betray my trust. If it turns out that I am pregnant then she will help me there too, she will help me to figure it all out, and that includes a way to tell Jaxson that he might be a dad.

I place the test on the counter, wash my hands and head back out to sit with Annie and wait, it seems like an hour passes by when actuality it was on a few minutes. My knee is bouncing like mad, and Annie is bouncing like a child hyped up on candy. She looks at me.

“You ready to find out if you’re going to be a mama or not?”

I shake my head no, but before I can get an answer out, I hear footsteps by the bedroom door.

“What did I just hear her say?”

I look to where the voice came from and find my big strong mate about to collapse to his knees at the words he just heard. Shit, I didn't want him to know yet until I found out for sure first.

“Hey Babe, I…um…well.”

“Spit out woman, you are going to give me a heart attack keeping me on the edge like this.”

I take a deep breath and tell Jaxson what happened this morning and how I have been feeling over the last few weeks and how I am so worried that if he even wants this or not and I confess all my worries and fears to him with Annie sitting right there as my support system, I feel her squeeze my hand in support and I keep telling Jaxson everything. I also tell him why Annie is here and Why I didn't want him to know yet.

He looks over to Annie and gives her a pleading look, “Annie, can I have a minute with Alex please?”

She looks at me and I give her a nod that says I will be fine and that I will let her know the result as soon as we do. When she gets up to leave Jaxson closes the door behind her and makes his way to me and kneels in front of me.

“Is it true? Are you…? pregnant?”

“I don't know Jax, I just took the test a few minutes ago, we were about to go in and see the result when you came in.”

“Why would you think I wouldn't want a family with you, we have talked about its dozens of times before now. I love to the end of this earth, and I would do anything for you, and you know this. I understand why you would feel this way, but I don't want you to think I would never want this with you. You are my moon and stars, my heaven and earth, the air I breathe, without you there is no me and I would never survive if anything happened to you. Remember when Stacy got her rogues to take you from me?”

I nod my head because everything he just said left me breathless. I wouldn’t be able to form any word even if I tried. So, I just look into his eyes and nod my head in a yes motion.

“Well, I never told you this but before I found you, I was on the verge of losing my mind, I had such a hard time keeping it together. If it wasn't for John keeping me on the right track to find you, I never would have made it to you. I would have lost my mind and went rabid and only goddess knows what would have happened then. I love you so much, Alex.”

He reaches for my hand with one hand and places his other hand over my belly and says, “Do you want to find out together?”

I give him a small nod of my head and he pulls me up to standing and together hand in hand we walk into the bathroom and look at the test together and we are both surprised at the result.