Chapter 15: Chapter Fifteen

**James**

Having to see Alex at school these last few days has been torture. Is it possible to regret rejecting her as my mate, no it's just the mate bond it's got to be, it will be fine, I’ll be able to mate and mark Jackie soon, I just need to wait until she turns eighteen in a few weeks and I can announce her as my mate and tell my dad who is the Alpha, and then he will want to announce it to the whole pack and then will come the Alpha and Luna ceremony, then he may be willing to let me take over as Alpha, then I can become the most powerful Alpha in our area.

Even before I rejected Alex officially, I planned to become Alpha and then find a way to become the strongest. But I can't do that if I have a weak Luna, and that’s exactly what Alex would make me, she will make me seem weak and I can't have that, I need someone strong by my side and someone who can help me take over more land and who can help me acquire more pack members. Alex has always been weak, she has never stood up for herself every time Jackie would put her down or make fun of her in front of the whole school, I need a Luna by my side that won’t let people push her around.

If Alex would just show she could be stronger then I wouldn’t have felt the need to reject her as my mate and future Luna. But I don’t think I could have ever loved her anyway. Jackie and I have been together for the last two years and I have come to love her more than anything else and we have already promised each other that when we found our true mates, we would reject them and be together as each other’s chosen mates.

As I’m walking through the halls at school, I see her standing at her locker, she looks so beautiful, I wonder if I could take back my rejection to her, the way her hair falls down her back and rest just above her supple bottom, and the way it swings from side to side as she walks, and the way she smiles when she sees her friend Annie....wait.... what am I saying? I rejected her because she is weak. This is just the mate bond that is making me feel and think this way. I need the bond to completely go away so I can make Jackie my Luna. She is the strongest female out there she isn’t from Alpha blood; Alex isn’t either, but Jackie shows that she is still stronger than Alex.

Speaking of Jackie here she comes now. “Hey baby,” she says with a little extra sweetness, and I can hear the lust in her voice. “Hey, Jackie.”

“James, what’s the matter? You aren’t still upset about finding out about that fatty freak Alex being your mate, are you? I thought you rejected her?”

“I did, but the mate bond hasn’t fully evaporated yet, so it's a bit difficult right now but don’t worry, you are still going to be my Luna.”

Jackie was not happy when I told her that Alex was my true mate, but once I told her that I rejected Alex, then she seemed a bit happier, Jackie is the right choice for a proper Luna.

“Good, I can’t wait until we can make it official.”

“We will tell my dad, after your birthday that you turned out to be my mate after all, and once we do, he will make me Alpha and then we can have your Luna ceremony.”

“Goody, Goody. I can't wait. We better get to class James; we are going to be late.”

We make our way to class and as we pass by the other people in the hall, I catch a small scent and I can't help but tilt my head in the air and take in a deep breath of Jasmin and honey.

It smells amazing. Then I turn to look to see where it's coming from and realize it's coming from Alex, and when we make eye contact, I can't help but notice the look of heartbreak on her face.

She still feels it too I see; the mate bond hasn’t fully left her either, but before she can change that look of utter hate towards me, I caught the look she thinks she has managed to keep me from seeing, but I caught it.

I need to figure out what to do about all this, her look of heartbreak and my plans to make Jackie my Luna is suddenly starting to confuse me about what I want. I’m beginning to wonder if I made a huge mistake when I rejected Alex as my mate. I just want to be the best and most powerful Alpha in our area. I need to figure out what to do and soon.

As I’m sitting here in class, I can’t help but wonder if I made a mistake when I rejected Alex? Could she be stronger than I think? When I said those terrible words, she looked like she was going to collapse then and there, but she managed to keep her strength and didn’t show me any emotion at all, and she came right back at me with a rejection of her own and without letting on too much about how hurt she was.

I’m beginning to think I may have made a mistake about rejecting her before I got to know her, I need to figure out a way to reconcile with her and maybe she will take me back and give me a chance to get to know her and if not…then I will have to figure out a way get my true mate back before the full moon when the bond will be completely broken. I only have until the Blue Moon Ball to figure this one out and what I’m going to do to fix this mess.

When the bell rings to dismiss class, I look to Jackie and say, “I need to head to my car for a minute, I forgot something, I’ll meet up with you in our next class together.”

“Okay baby, I’ll see you after a while. Love you!”

“Love you too.”

I don’t really feel like I love her anymore, but I can’t let her think something is wrong right now. I need to get my head right before I make any rash decisions.

When I make my way outside, I stand in the courtyard contemplating what I should do, so Instead of going back inside the school I walk to my car and climb in and drive with no place in mind to go, I need to come up with a plan. Jackie is the wrong choice, and I am beginning to think Alex would have been the perfect Luna. I need to fix this and fast. I need to figure out a way to get Alex to forgive me and take me back.