Chapter 29: Chapter twenty-nine - Accept your rejection

[REN]

It's been a week since he left.

As much as I would love to say that I don't miss him, I can't.

So far, it's been great. I've spent so much time with Nate, once again we go everywhere together, do everything together and even sleep in one room. My parents are thrilled, they can't get their hands off from each other, and the fact that my mom is pregnant might prove that. Yes, that's right. I'm going to be a big sister!

Most of our old pack members have joined my father's pack because Marie disappeared as soon as she found out that I'm mated to Azrael. It's weird, but who cares.

I've been stuck in my thoughts until Nate rushed into the room with flowers on his hands. Again. My room reminds me of a fresh grave because there are flowers everywhere.

"Where should I put them?" he asked, obviously out of breath.

"On the floor, you can see that there's no more place for them anymore," I casually answered and smiled at him.

"Yeah, but there's more, where they came from," he winked at me.

Nate took the little envelope off from the flowers and placed it on my bed, sitting next to me.

"Aren't you going to read them?" he said, reaching for my hand.

"I don't know. I feel so bad for telling him off for never listening to what he has to say," I sighed and closed my eyes.

That's true. I've been doing nothing but pointing out how bad of a mate he is, yet I didn't bother to listen when he tried to explain. I'm selfish, self-centered.

Nate wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tightly. I could feel unwanted tears streaming down my cheeks.

"He killed her," he whispered.

"What? Wait, he what? Who?" I got out of his arms and jumped off from the bed instantly.

"He killed Samantha, his ex. Literally minutes after you left with that guard. That was her plan, to separate you two and break the mate bond," Nate spoke truthfully. Without any other word, he just stood up and headed towards the doors.

Before leaving my room, he sighed.

"I hope that you'll read those notes and think. We're worried about your state. You refuse to leave this room; you barely talk to your parents. If you have to do anything, you're refusing to do it, if I'm not around. You haven't been on training or eaten properly; this is not Ren we all know and love. Think about it. Your heat might start soon; you'll need him. I'm not the biggest fan of Alpha Valentino, yet I do feel like he's trying. Just give him a chance. Think about it," each word he spoke was more like a whisper. After that was said, he just left, without waiting for my answer or anything.

I sat down, completely dumbfounded.

After a few deep breaths, I reached for the little envelope. It smelt like him, and soon I found myself drifting away in thoughts about my mate.

"What are you waiting for? Open them, let's see what OUR mate has to say!" my wolf urged.

"Alright, alright," I whispered and stood up. Grabbing all other letters, I soon rushed downstairs. I needed to be outside, away from everyone, when I read those. I need my privacy. Also, I know that I'll most likely cry, and I don't want anyone to see me being weak. It's been too much already.

I rushed to the lake, which was in the woods, just next to or borders. Without waiting anymore, I opened the first envelope and found the cutest note ever.

My love, my heart, my everything.

I hope you enjoyed the flowers.

Unfortunately, I've been nothing but an idiot, as I never asked which ones are your favorites.

Truthfully, I don't know a thing about you.

And I'm sorry.

I'm so damn, sorry.

I got you wildflowers; they remind me of you.

Free, careless, strong, and independent.

I hope that one day you'll be able to forgive me and maybe give me one more, one last chance.

We are sorry, we miss you dearly.

Yours always:

Azrael xxx

Tears streamed down my cheeks, without me noticing it. I slowly put the first note down and carefully opened the next one.

My Ren.

Being away from you has been nothing but torture.

I miss everything about you, but most importantly, your presence here.

I know that you hate me, but it won't stop me from trying my best, all for you.

I'd do anything for you.

I hope you enjoyed the flowers; they remind me of your beauty and grace.

If only you'd see how perfect you are for me.

If only you'd know how drop-dead gorgeous you are.

If only I would be able to tell you how much I love you.

Yours, forever and always:

Azrael

This was the second note he has sent me. As much as I wanted to hate him, I couldn't. I missed him; I carved his presence, touch, I dreamed about his voice. I know it's the mate bond, but even without it, even with all he has done, I missed him.

"About time to realize that, stupid," my wolf growled at me. She's been on edge. Lately, she did need her mate. But so did I.

"I'm not stupid; you know why I did what I did," I answered and tried to block her out. Before I could, she managed to respond again.

"Read the last note, the one you got today; it must be important."

I sighed and opened the note. Just a few words, which hurt, which threw a knife in my heart. Which proved to me how much he has been hurting.

Miss Raven Snow

I don't know how much more I could take without having you around.

I'm trying my best to respect your father and pack. I'm trying my best to keep away from you.

I can't. I can't wait anymore.

Since I haven't heard from you for a week, I've made my decision.

Please meet me today, next to your pack borders.

I shall wait until midnight.

I've decided to accept your rejection - whenever you're ready.

Alpha Azrael Valentino

My hands started shaking; I kept sobbing and soon cried out loud. All this time, I've been acting like an ignorant brat, I kept drowning myself in sorrow and didn't bother to open even one note. And now my mate thinks that I want to reject him. I cried for a while, without worrying about wiping my tears away. I didn't hear how someone stood behind me until a husky voice spoke. Voice with so much hurt and pain in it, I could barely take it, without breaking down once again.

"I'm ready whenever you are. Just do it fast", he spoke from behind me.

Azrael. My Azrael.