Chapter 49: The aftermath - Monet

I open my eyes, ligtht filtering in from somewhere.

I clench my thighs, a slight discomfort echoing from between my legs, no doubt from last night.

My ears are on fire as I recall the night before. I'm lying in the crook of one of Cole's arms, his other possessively over my breasts.

I carefully extricate myself, careful not to wake him up.

I hurriedly put on my shorts, the remnants of his sperm sticky between my thighs.

What the fuck were we thinking? I'm so confused, my feelings scrambled inside me.

Cole looks gorgeous even in sleep, his muscles hard and toned, looking like an ad for camping gear.

Does he want me like I want him? It certainly felt like it last night. Did he pretend to not know that I kissed him when we were swimming in the lake?

I locate my flip flops, and leave the tent as quietly as possible, soft snores coming from Samantha's side. Did she hear me last night? There was no way I was able to keep quiet.

It seems like the people are gradually getting up, and I go to the tent I was supposed to sleep in, urgently whisper-shouting for Amy, in case someone sees her and Luke coming from the same tent.

I don't want either of them getting into trouble.

The zip goes down from the inside, and Amy pops her out, looking flustered. "Give me one sec!"

The zip goes back up, and I swear I hear moaning coming from inside, so I turn around and go to campfire where someone already started it.

I grin, looking into the flames, happy that I at least had one night. A night I will never forget. "Hey."

I turn around and feel myself blushing in embarrassment when I come face to face with James. He came with Chrystal, and my roommate was all over him the whole night.

"Hey, what's up."

He smiles charmingly. Chrystal got lucky, he really is a cute guy.

"Seems like I never see you around anymore." He stops next to me.

I smile back at him. "I'm around."

"Heard you and Damon are officially dating."

I raise my eyebrows in surprise. I swear the rumor mill on campus are worse than old ladies around a bingo table.

"We've gone on two dates." I simply answer, not wanting to explain myself.

"Lucky guy." There's an expression on James' face that I can't quite decipher.

"Well, he doesn't play football."

"No, he doesn't."

I jump at Cole's voice behind us, and I swear my whole face is burning when I see him wearing nothing but his shorts, his physique impressive in the morning light.

His electric blue eyes meet mine, burning right through me, and as usual my best friend saves me by stumbling out of the tent, her hair all over the place.

"Good morning!" She practically shouts and runs over to me to grab my hand and pulls me away from the guys to the toilet. Her eyes are wide when she pushes me into one of the narrow stalls and lock the door behind us. "We almost did it!"

I blush, not because they almost did it, because we almost did it too. And I can't even tell her.

"What happened?" I ask cautiously, not wanting anyone to come in here and overhear her. There are so much gossip going around campus, if another girl overheard her, the story will be sure to end up at her father's desk tomorrow.

''He kissed me." She smiles dreamily, and then puts her mouth to my ear to whipser. "And then he kisses me everywhere. Like everywhere!"

She giggles like a thirteen year old schoolgirl, making me giggle too. And in a perfect world, this will be the time where I tell her what happened. Instead, I relish in her delight.

"What happenes now?" I want to know honestly. She knows how I feel about her being with Luke.

From what I know and have heard, Luke is a great player, and will definitely have a chance to go to the NFL like Cole. I don't want that taken away from him. Coach has the power to bench him, and scouts won't see him play.

"We haven't exactly talked, if you know what I mean." She rolls her eyes dramatically.

I hug her. "I'm happy for you, just be careful, please."

I'm the biggest hypocrite, I know that, especially when I go to the stall next door to pee and wipe Cole's sperm out of me. A pang goes through my heart, along with some panic.

What of those sperm cells managed to swim all the way to my uterus and the pill was somehow ineffectve? It's the most stupid thing I have ever told myself, I know, but if that were to happen, it would be the biggest disaster known to mankind.

My mother would literally kill me, not just becaise of Cole, but because the importance of using condoms has been drilled into my head ever since I was old enough to know what sex was.

It seems like the whole camp has awakened when we get out of the toilet, some people already with beer in their hands nursing hangovers, the typical college Sunday morning.

"Coffee?" Cole asks when we get to our site, his eyes bruning into mine again. If he keeps on looking at me like that, the whole world is going to know what we did. At least he also has a hoodie on. If he was bare chested, I might have keeled over and fainted like a damsel in distress.

"Your guest still sleeping?" Amy asks with another roll of her eyes, accepting the mug he holds out to her.

Cole shrugs, like he doesn't care, because he doesn't. I'm starting to think Samantha was only invited to piss me off. I can't deny it, I was a little pissed off because she came with us.

I avoid his gaze when he gives me a mug of steaming coffee.

"It's only instant, but it's good." It feels like his voice is caressing my skin, like his mouth did last night.

How the fuck am I ever going to get over that?

And what am I going to do aboout Damon?

And why in the back of my mind, I'm already wishing for a repeat?