Chapter 42: Not Care

I shook my head. That’s where he first mentioned what I should focus on. He said he had changed his mind. He will not take the child from me. And at least I was satisfied with his decision. I looked at Jai. She cries as the man speaks. He really thinks, his father is Jayar. I pulled deep. As I promised him, I will be able to and endure everything for him. Just don't take the child away from me Jayar.

That night, I discontinued the departure plan. The man may be aware of his threat. The States are far away for me to follow the child and pick up.

Chilsea arrived with the house quiet. Good and he wasn't there before. He might join in my criticism and quarrel with me.

JAYAR’S P.O.V.

"Damn!" In my car, I went straight to a bar. I just let my feelings pass. My phone rang and Chilsea was calling. I didn't answer it. I wanted to be alone.

I hit the steering wheel. I hate myself. I was sending too much of my anger when Kiera lied. I exercised my pride too much. I was just shocked when he blamed me for everything he was upset about.

Kiera has a point. I became too greedy. Selfish. I used to not care about the people I stepped on. For me, I am the one to be obeyed and when I don't follow what I want, poor person. But when it's time for Kiera to run away and take my niece away, I will do everything. He will stay in my house as long as I want.

"Bullshit!" I braked in the middle of the road and got hit in the head. Kiera's teary eyes seemed to be temptingly appearing in my mind. It's like my heart is pounding and I hate this feeling.

I only loved him one night and that night was over. But why did I feel the strange emotion that began to emerge?

KIERA'S P.O.V

Ever since my criticism of Jayar happened, I haven't noticed that he even touched me with a simple glance. Work, the child and his fiancee only focused his attention. It was like I was reading in that house. Okay, I know that's what's going to happen.

I am thankful because in the morning, I am the one looking after the child at school. Somehow, I managed to avoid Chilsea’s poisonous tongue. Jayar also takes us every time we come in and picks us up every time we go home at noon. Jai only works for half a day.

A lot has changed since Jayar adopted me and since he found out the child is a nephew. It's even better, he gives me a reason not to love him anymore but my bwesit heart, doesn't want to listen to me. It still keeps beating him and he will remain the only one.

"Hey, my fiance!"

I was about to enter the kitchen when Chilsea called me that. I pretended not to hear him. It's starting to take over my life again.

"Aren't you leaving this house?"

I still haven't listened to him. I just continued in the kitchen but he artistically blocked my way.

“And where do you think your going? I'm still talking to you, gaga! ” he raised an eyebrow and artistically greeted me.

"Okay, I don't have time to fight with you," I said calmly. I fought an evil stare at him.

“Wow! Mataray. Who are you? You're just stuck here, ah. And if I let you go, I can do it. ”

"Really?" Then I passed him. I don’t care if she’s the man’s fiancee.

We both just love Jayar. But she should be thankful because she is the one the man loves and will marry her. I'm not kidnapping Jayar from him. So I wonder why this woman's blood is so hot to me. I have no opponent for him after all. I’m just a poor person but I won’t be oppressive. He’ll just try to hurt me physically and he’ll find what he’s looking for.

“Aba’t!” He held my arm when the maid approached us and informed me that Jai was calling me, who was now in the yard and playing.

I boldly dismissed his clasped hand and headed for the boy's whereabouts.

"I hate you!" he insisted.

"Same to you," I said in a whisper but the truth is that he liked to cut off his hand.

AS THE days passed, my load grew heavier. Time seems to be running out for me. Instead of wanting to plant my love for the man in oblivion, it presses even harder into the deepest corners of my heart. The difficulty! Especially when I see the two of them with his girlfriend. I was hurt but I just pretended to be okay. Somehow I want to regret ‘that night I gave up everything but even if I turn my mind around, I have no regrets.

Like today, day of the week. After we went to church, they happily took a dip in the large pool. While I was here in my room and secretly watched the three of them from my window happily paddling in the water. I heard Chilsea's shrill laugh from here. I felt jealous when I saw him lifted into the air by Jayar. They look perfect couple.

Chilsea is beautiful, sexy, radish -like in whiteness and rich. Me? I have no wealth to match the woman.

What if I join them? If it's just beauty, the beauty I have doesn't give up. I don't know what came to my mind when I started rummaging in the drawer for my new swimsuit. I bought it before when Jai and I went for a walk so that in case my son cheers, this is what I will wear. But I still didn’t use it because I was afraid to take a dip in the pool and I couldn’t swim. But now? Let's see.

I will not lose to Chilse a. That's right. I will not give up. Jayar once told me that he loved me one night. Maybe I can do that forever.

I smiled at the nonsense I thought was even very impossible. But nothing is impossible if you just try. I changed into a red two piece swimsuit and looked in the mirror. I find myself seductive and the color seems to suit me in a non-losing plan. I look seductive and naughty in the bath I'm wearing. After putting on the clothes, I went out and didn’t seem to care to join them.

I took off the clothes I was wearing and the body I was hiding appeared. Jayar looked at me in disbelief. I could see his admiration for my body. While Chilsea smirked and stared. I was secretly celebrating.

Jai ran quickly towards me and was happy to see me join.

"Let's take a bath baby?" my nanny is smiling.

He nodded and pulled me into the children's swimming pool, which was probably only waist -high. I laughed in my mind but I accompanied the child. In a few moments, the two of us will be playing.

"Join Mommy!" Jai passed the ball to me.

Smiling I caught it and passed it back to my son. Out of the corner of my eye, I was overjoyed to see Jayar lose his attention to Chilsea. I notice that he is sneaking a peek at me.

"Honey, teach me to swim," the lame woman softened to him and artistically hugged his neck.

I took a deep breath. I am encouraging myself. I think, I’m the winner these times because I have Jayar’s attention. Could it be his heart? How can I win it?

"Wait here honey, I'll just get something to drink."

I laughed secretly as he climbed up and left his lame fiancee, whose eyebrows and snout almost stretched in utter annoyance.

“Hey Tita Chilsea, come here! Join us. ” Jai hated him. He just frowned and stared at us. "Auntie, come on!" the child barked at him and went up to go to it.

I wanted to stop my son but he was close to Chilsea who is now on the sidelines. Sitting and seemingly hot -headed because the man left for a moment, or because I overcame his presence.

“Jai,” I called.

"Just wait Mom." He turned to me for a moment and allegedly carved his Aunt. "All right, Tita, come on."

“I said I don't want to! You know, you're a jerk. You look like your raw Mommy! Do you know that you are not his child and I am not your Aunt and Jayar is not your real Daddy ?! ” He is now standing and he is still pointing the child in the forehead.