Need for him

Need for him

I was already hard, my cock making itself known as it grew against Blair's legs. Maddox's eyes changed when he noticed this. They were filled with lust.

"Can I take these off baby?" I asked, reaching for his panties.

"Yes, now," he replied, his chest rising and falling. As I did so, I found the last letter of the word written on his inner thigh.

"Lilac," I said as I kissed his soft skin. "The word is lilac. Do you want me to stop?"

"Don't stop, please don't stop," he said, reaching for my hair as my lips pecked his skin.

Then, suddenly, he uttered in the softest of voices: "Felix, can we use a condom this time? I think I messed the pill up this month with everything that happened..."

He sounded ashamed, but my heart only started beating faster.

"Of course we can darling. Don't worry, I have a few right here," I replied, reaching for my bedside table and taking one out. "Thanks for telling me baby. What matters is that we're safe. Speaking of safety, a little lube might come in handy. I don't want to hurt you."

He shook his head as I took the bottle of lube out, setting it next to his waist to use later.

My lips returned to his thigh, moving down until they reached his crotch.

"I'll ask you again baby, is this what you want? Do you want me to keep going?"

"Yes Felix, you know I do."

Slowly, I placed my tongue flat against his entrance. I tested the waters first, not going too fast or hard. He moaned softly, whispering "yes yes yes" to himself as I tasted him.

"I missed you so fucking much," I said as I came up for air. He gripped my hair, sending a wave of pleasure down my body.

I replaced my lips with my fingers, coming up to his eye level as I touched him.

"Is this alright baby?" I asked as I circled his entrance with only one finger. He nodded, kissing my neck. I pushed it in slowly, studying his features. He seemed so calm, so at peace.

"I want you inside me Felix," he said. I circled his entrance again with one more finger, sliding it in. He made a grimace, but it soon disappeared and was replaced with a smile.

"Only if you help me put the condom on," I replied with a smile. I wanted him to feel comfortable touching me.

I gave him the foil and he opened it carefully, taking the disk from inside. Using his feet, he slid down my boxers. With one hand he gripped the bottom of my cock while the other slid down the latex. When he was done, he continued touching me by stroking my length, his eyes finding mine.

"You're so big Felix... I need another finger in," he said shyly. I kissed his cheek, wanting to take his anxiety away.

"I know darling. I'll use lube now, alright?"

I reached for the bottle and squeezed a small amount onto his entrance. I circled him once again, placing a third finger in his entrance. God, he was so tight.

I pushed it in as slow as I possibly could. I studied him closely, not a single sign of discomfort crossing his face.

"That's it baby, that's my boy," I said, at last pumping him in and out. His high pitched moans coursed through me like electricity.

"I want you in me now Felix, right now," he said, reaching for my arm and gripping it. He wanted me so fucking much it was almost moving.

"Yes baby, whatever you want," I said, sliding my fingers out. I put a little more lube on my shaft, spreading it all over my length. "I'm going in Maddox."

The condom and the lube gave us so much lubrication that I slid inside him incredibly easily. We both moaned as our bodies finally came together after so long apart. As Maddox wrapped his legs around my waist, pulling me close, I was so overcome with emotion that I buried my face in his neck as I thrusted slowly, wanting to feel him as close to me as possible.

"Felix, this is so good, so so good," he whispered in between moans. "I missed you so much."

I hugged him so tightly my thrusts almost came to a stop. "I'm going to give you everything you want tonight. You deserve it and so much more."

He caressed my beard. "I want us to come together Felix."

I nodded as I reached for his clit, circling it just how he liked it. The way his body reacted to me woke up the butterflies in my stomach. I picked up the pace slightly, reaching the full depth of him. He'd pull my hair whenever I filled him up completely and I had to ask if he was okay. He was more than okay. He wanted more, he wanted me.

I never stopped circling his clit, already feeling the pressure build as his walls clenched me. Maddox found my lips and devoured my mouth, our moans morphing together. He thrusted his hips forward to accompany my movements.

Even after so long without touching each other, we knew exactly how we reacted to one another, we knew exactly what to do and what felt right.

I tried my best to come at the same time as Maddox, and thank God I did. The feeling of unraveling in each other's arms was unparalleled. That intensity allowed us nothing more but to show our true emotions, so it was no surprise when our eyes started glistening as we stared at each other.

A lump grew at the back of my throat and my stomach flipped. I wanted to tell him I loved him, but I couldn't. What if I broke his heart again? What if I scared him off?

"Maddox..." I breathed, my hips coming to a halt. "I'm so happy you're here. Stay with me."

That sentence didn't come close to what I really felt, but it was all I could muster. He smiled, relaxation taking over his body. I slid out of him, taking the condom off. I headed to the bathroom to clean myself up quickly and returned with a small towel so Maddox could do the same.

"You do it," he said.

He moaned when the towel came in contact with his clit as I wiped the come and lube away. I kissed him tenderly before tossing the towel aside and picking one of my t-shirts for him to wear.

With everything taken care of, all I wanted was to lay in bed with Maddox and hold him, smell him, kiss him, feel his warmth.

I gave in to all my desires, completely surrendering to them.