Chapter 64
In Bear’s mind, Brian had passed his first two tests with excellence. His innate common sense, his intelligence, and his natural grace combined to make his service to a Master sheer perfection. He had dressed in the exact order and manner requested and had arrived precisely on time. The second test he also aced. Bear told Brian to take one hour to determine his own destiny. Brian did not blurt out he loved Bear in an instant, nor did he deny himself the opportunity to deliberate, to weigh the pros and cons. Instead, Brian went back to his room and envisioned himself and Bear in such a situation and gave himself the necessary time to think about his options.
Bear knew Brian’s first impulse was to submit straightaway.
However, the boy gave the issue the consideration it deserved.
Bear’s request would require a complete life change. If a submissive did not give it and its consequences the proper consideration, it was obvious he was not serious about the commitment a lifetime collar and contract signified. In the BDSM world, the collar and the contract meant Bear would own Brian. In the eyes of their world, ownership of another human being was something taken very seriously by both the owner and his pet. The third in his set of trials was small but spoke volumes of his boy’s desire and willingness to serve. Setting his Master’s tastes and desires before his own, he asked how Bear would prefer the sauce. He didn’t make it to please himself.
Bear stopped exploring and took Brian into his arms. He noticed earlier how Brian reveled in the feel of the whorls of coarse hair on his chest.
Bear spoke, “Brian, tonight I want you to lie back and enjoy how I make your body feel. I want to learn and recognize all of your noises. I want you to let go of any inhibition and scream or beg at will, and you will beg, boy, do not doubt it. First, I want your safe word…”
Brian whispered into Bear’s neck, “China, my safe word is china.”
Bear was curious. “Why did you come up with china as a safe word?”
“Because my mother broke china when she was angry and it always upset me.”
Bear considered Brian’s answer and decided to file it away for later dissection. If only half of what Bear suspected was true, Brian led a tortured childhood. Bear pulled Brian closer into his embrace. “I’ll always be there for you, baby. You know that, don’t you?”
“Oh, Sir, I so want to believe you…” Brian whispered as a few stray tears coursed down his cheeks.
“You will, in time. I always get what I aim for, and I want you, baby, very much. Tonight I want to make you sing. Remember though, there will be no penetration until you have properly performed outside of this house.”
“When will that be, Sir?”
“First of all, to you, in private, I am Papa Bear. On the outside with our kind, I am Sir, until such time you wear my collar, and then I will become Master. Outside of the community, I am either Bear, or, if we are in a work environment, Donald. Do you have this straight?”
“Yes, Sir—eh—Papa Bear,” Brian answered.
“Tomorrow, we will pick up your mother and get her established here with Mrs. Santore’s sister, Louisa. Monday, we will use to tie up any loose ends with your apartment and belongings. We will also audit your Aunt’s accounts and find how she used the money you gave her to care for your mother; even if we have to subpoena her bank and credit card statements. We may also stop in at the office to settle a few matters. At any time during the next few days with the exception of the time we spend with your mother, I could give you your hour to prepare.
“Only after I have seen you at the club will I be sure of your sincerity. Let me clear the air a moment, Brian. I want to trust you with complete confidence, just as I am sure you want to trust me.
Nevertheless, both of us need to overcome life’s lessons learned and give our hearts away despite knowing the pain such an action might bring down upon us.”
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Brian took the opportunity to bury his face in Bear’s chest and hold his lover in a hard embrace. He then laid back to wait whatever Bear and the evening had planned for him.
Bear continued his slow seduction. He massaged, stroked, licked, bit, and kissed every inch of his boy’s body. He began by rolling the long platinum hair around his fist, exposing the nape of Brian’s neck. He used his thumbs to massage the small area between the neck bones. Brian’s breathing quickened. Bear growled in satisfaction and began to lick. Brian’s body jumped into overdrive, all of his mental acuity became concentrated on the one small spot. His torso shook. He ached to move closer to Bear, but stoically held his place on his back. “Not yet, my darling, not yet,” Bear whispered in his ear as he tongued its rim.