Chapter 1

I just bit my lip when I saw my last outline. I’m just pissed because I’m finally done with all the drawing I’ve done all day. I stretched my neck then rotated my seat.

“Oh! Goodness! It’s still raining,” I whispered because of the gloom of the sky that I could see from here in my office.

I could do nothing but wait for homecoming time and wait for Lana to pick me up. I want to go to Zaffiro for when I can’t reach him in his office. I was just stunned when I remembered the woman who often followed him, her secretary that feeling beautiful! Agh!

I’m even better than her!

I just sighed and then stared at the door opening. Lana’s entry was the reason I dropped the picture frame I had stared at earlier. That earlier I had asked myself why he couldn’t love me?

“Let’s go home early now, why haven’t you left yet? Are you thinking about him again?” she asked then sat down in front of me. It gave me a teasing look then stared at the landed picture frame.

“Why did you immediately suspect him?” I asked then applied lipstick to my lips.

I just stared at my reflection, there was nothing wrong with me, there was nothing missing from my face. People often praise me for my beauty, many flirt with me, but I don’t know why he doesn’t like me. What do I need to do?

“Attract him,” she whispered then laughed as I raised my eyes.

“Tsk! I’m not that kind of person, I’m not desperate like others—”

“Liar!” she said laughing then stood up. “You know Veron, stop chasing Zaffiro, no one wants that from you. You’re just torturing yourself. And one more thing, he’s a busy man, there’s no time when it comes to love. Find another man that you can mess,” she added as she blinked her eyes.

Fvck her!

I could do nothing but keep quiet, instead of going home, we went to the mansion where Lana’s parents and my uncle were. I rarely stay there because of my hectic schedule, but I make sure I have time for myself and Zaffiro. I just lay in bed all day and spent the whole night, we don’t have work tomorrow because we’re just preparing for the upcoming new collection for the runway.

“Good morning people! Good morning to my uncle Zenos!” I greeted them with a smile and the others winked.

I kissed it hard on the cheek and my uncle looked at me in amazement. “Why are you so dressed?”

I took a loaf of bread and then left it standing. “I’m just going somewhere. But it’s just fast. As in just fast, where is Lana?”

She wasn’t here in the kitchen, she wasn’t in her room when I woke up, I almost turned my head until I looked at the wall clock, I got up immediately and said goodbye to them. I picked a grape stalk first and then left it, I wanted to say goodbye to Lana but I couldn’t see her so I just left.

I’m already making my way to my Zaffiro’s company. It’s a bit far but it’s cool. I couldn’t bear the hunger as long as I could go there.

While driving, I noticed that it was dark again, it was still early but it was already overcast. So I speeded up I’m driving. I don’t know if there was a storm or just a really strong weather today. It was also about twenty minutes before I got to where I wanted to go. I greeted the guard with a smile so he smiled at me too. Upon entering, I was greeted by many of people wearing id, while others were looking at various collections.

Others just look like they have something to throw out and are obviously rich, it’s really good and I’m a designer and I’m fine myself. I immediately hit the 17th floor where my Zaffiro’s office is. Since I was the only one in the elevator I fixed myself up and got there quickly. The next things is my Zaffiro’s secretary first appeared on the pretty side four steps away. This woman was talking to someone so I waited for a while. After a while it left and went straight anywhere and the secretary smiled at me.

“Good morning Ma’am. Any appointment?” she greeted me with a smile that I shrugged.

Is it necessary?

“None, but I have to talk to your boss. Mr. Arcus. It’s really important,” I replied smiling and staring.

“But Ma’am you have t—”

“Oh! I’m his fiancée, and we’re going to discuss our wedding. I’m Veronika Azusa Ficarro, anyway.”

Hope she believes! This is just the way!

“Nice meeting you Ma’am. But he’s still talking to a client,” she said a little softly, maybe she was surprised but the smile was still there.

“I see. When is he free?”

She turned to her laptop and then smiled at me. “It’s still 11:00 am Ma’am. But if you want to tell me—”

“No. It’s okay. Maybe I’ll just wait here. I’ll just go around first.”

“Ok Ma’am. I’m really sorry Ma’am.”

“It’s okay. I’ll just come back here again,” I pretended to be holy and then turned around.

I bought a flower there somewhere, it looks pretty okay but I’m not sure if he’ll like it. I’ve done this before, I just hope he’s used to it, although, he hasn’t changed his mind about me.

Like I’m just a sister to him! It can’t be that way! Oh god!

I immediately returned to the company and then went for a walk again, my eyebrows were still a bit raised because of the woman staring at me, I knew I was beautiful but she didn’t have to stare at me like that. My goodness!

I rearranged myself in the elevator, I had some men with me but I was just ignored them, because they weren’t the ones I came here for. Once, I just got used to this, that after work, Zaffiro would buy food for us to be together, or else I would call him first so he would know.

I also stayed outside for a long time, and after that I went back immediately. My smile was so wide because I was already facing the glass door of his office, but I couldn’t see what was inside because the lid was down on it as well as on his window. I immediately pushed open the door and then its vast office opened up to me, and at the end of it was Zaffiro sitting in a swivel chair and blindfolded with his arms crossed.

It’s not very bright here because the light is off and the back of it is only half covered and here you can also see the view outside. I slowly closed the door and tried not to make any noise. I quietly walked into his spacious office, I immediately placed the vase on its small table, in addition to it on the table in front of him. The table where I put the vase is probably the guest’s, or used for meetings of his clients because there are long sofas around it and one sofa in each center.

When I was ready, I approached where he was and looked at him intently. I could hear his every breath, his lips that were so small and so perfect, and his nose that was piercing and his eyes— wide open?

“There’s a ghost! There’s a— Hmm!” I felt the veins thing cover my mouth.

“Why are you shouting like that?” he asked standing up and slowly removed his hand.

As usual, he’s wrinkled again.

“Because, before you just closed your eyes, when I looked at your lips and nose, I’m sure you closed your eyes then! T-Then suddenly you opened your eyes, so I was a little scared!” I shouted at him as his forehead gradually wrinkled.

What is wrong again?

“Did you look at my lips?”

Oh freak! Oh my god! Did I say that? Of course no!

“No! How did you say that? Did you see it? But you closed your eyes.”

“But you said be—”

“Yon’t have any evidence. Don’t even suspect that. We’re not married yet. You suspect me right away!”

It just shook me, but of course, I’m not going to lose, I stared at it and then sat on his sofa, it’s tiring to drive especially… if he’s not the one I ride on. But who knows, maybe soon. I’ll ride on his top, can’t wait!

“Whose flower is that?” he said coldly then sat down in front of me.

“For you. I bought it, because that’s what you do when you’re dating?” I said with a smile, but his only frowned.

“So you’re just trying to say, you want to co—”

“Yes! And then take note my baby, already told about it it your parents.” I applauded softly before he leaned back in the chair and raised an eyebrow at me.

Only Veronika could do that.

“And?” he frowning added but I ignored him.

I looked at the flowers again and arranged them, but in the middle, I stopped what I was doing. My stomach churned, I just saw him looking at my stomach. Does he want me to get pregnant? I wanna bet!

“Have you eaten?” he asked me looking at my stomach.

I immediately remembered what I ate before, but because I was on a diet, maybe later when I gain weight he won’t like me anymore. He has many other beautiful female clients.

I shook my head and smiled shyly. “Not yet. But your bread and you, were enough.” I stared at his polo and bit my lower lip. But instead of him being thrilled, it looks like I was the one hit by that lines, because Keus told me that I always have to dig a lot of pick-up lines.

But what if he doesn’t get it?

“I don’t know what to do with you.” He avoided his gaze at me and then left the office.

I’m just out of breath because of what I’m doing. I’m aware it’s been so longing, he’s improving a bit because he’s paying attention to me, even though he’s busy with his work, I can still talk to him. I only lose when it comes to work, I can’t always bother him because sometimes he gets upset with me but he just doesn’t say it.

I walked around his office first and peeked into a room at the end, it still looks like that, it’s just like a room where he can sleep or eat, usually, here he sleeps when he can’t go home.

Even before I was caught, I immediately sat down on the sofa that he had just returned, carrying two paper bags that he slowly put down. But I was immediately devastated when I saw his ballpen, not a literal ballpen because it was bulging in the middle of his thigh.

What a sinful eye!

Even before I could stare, I immediately took what food that was and then left it. He just sat in front of me and accompanied me to eat. We were just quiet and I didn’t know what to say. We had eaten for a few minutes but he didn’t even look at me. He looks like his dad, he looks so strict that you think he’s going to eat, it would be nice if he ate me.

“Zaf?” I call so it stuck to sipping broth.

“Hmm?” its response so I lowered the food I was holding.

“When are you going home to the mansion?”

It’s just surprising because he doesn’t really come home anymore, yes, ever since we were grew up in mansion. Plus the fact that he’s busy with work, that’s why I also come here often but I didn’t caught him in his office and usually in the meeting. I have no right to know or ask about his work because I know we have no relationship.

“Not now,” he simply replied as I expected.

“Why? Even just one day, it’s boring there,” I insisted but my voice seemed to have lost the tone I used to hear from him.

“I’m really busy, Veron,” he said seriously.

I closed my mouth and then touched the food again. I know that, I’m just really speculating once that he’s happy. I was content with what I ate and wondered when the time would come when I would be conscious.